The Truth About Thinking You’re Better Than You Are

By Festus Joe Addai | Made2MasterAI

There’s a strange silence that follows you when you chase your dreams for too long.
Not applause. Not hate. Just silence.
You start to wonder if people are avoiding you, or if the truth is even worse — that they never really saw you to begin with.

I used to think I was one of the best rappers in the UK.
Not because I had the numbers.
Not because I had the cosigns.
But because I had a message — something that felt like purpose.

Then came the podcast. I edited people’s stories, clipped their wisdom, added music, polished their message.
They got praise. I got invisible.
And still, I didn’t stop.

Now I build websites and write blogs.
And once again, I feel like I’m “trying to succeed” in a way that makes people uncomfortable.
But this time, I don’t want fame.
I want peace.

The Delusion Dilemma

There’s a voice in my head that whispers:

“What if they were right? What if you were never that good? What if you’re just good at making things look deep?”

And I don’t silence that voice anymore.
I sit with it.
Because maybe I wasn’t the best rapper.
Maybe I was just the most honest.
Maybe I thought it was talent, but it was actually trauma — screaming through metaphors, begging to be heard.

The Perfectionism That Feels Like Control

People think perfectionism is pride.
But most of the time, it’s fear.

Fear that if I don’t make it perfect, people will finally confirm what I’ve always feared:
“You’re nothing special.”

I used to hope people would notice the quality.
That they’d see the effort.
But deep down, maybe I just wanted someone to say:
“You’re not crazy for trying this hard.”

The Culture That Punishes Trying

In some cultures, if you “try too hard,” you’re seen as a beg.
You’re seen as fake.
Even if what you’re doing is pure.

And that’s the trap.
If you stay quiet, no one cares.
If you speak too loud, they say you’re full of yourself.
If you try to win, they say you’ve changed.
If you lose, they say they knew it.

So Why Keep Going?

Because this isn’t about being better than anyone.
It’s about not betraying yourself.

I don’t want validation anymore.
I want truth.

I want to look back in 10 years and say:
“I didn’t quit when no one clapped.”

Because even if I never sell a package, or get 1,000 followers, or receive an award —
I know I was building something real.
Something that mirrored the pain, the growth, the loneliness, the awakening.
Something Made2Master.

If You’re Reading This and You Feel the Same…

You’re not delusional.
You’re just ahead of your time.
And if people don’t understand you yet, maybe that’s the clearest sign that what you’re doing matters.

Keep building.
Keep refining.
Keep being — even if the world’s still buffering.

Because one day, they’ll catch up.
And they’ll realize:

You weren’t showing off.
You were showing up.